Guruji's teachings
An account of the first time the Goddess appeared to Guruji at Devipuram, and how they walked together in the rain.
An account of Guruji's experience, posted on his blog by Vira Chandra. Originally published at amritananda-natha-saraswati.blogspot.com on 7 November 2016.
First time in Devīpuram, when Guruji was blessed by the Goddess, She appeared to him as a sixteen-year-old beautiful maiden. He was dumbfounded and stood transfixed. She smiled at him and beckoned him to do the necessary pūjā to the guest of honour, Herself.
“There is nothing here! No drop of water! What can I offer you?!” — he questioned Her. As he was completing his sentence there was a sudden cloudburst! With that water he offered Her Arghyam (water to drink), Pādyam (water to wash Her feet), and did the pūjā. She was pleased! He was satisfied and choked with happiness.
The grace and Her aura filled the Universe. The beauty of Her smile and Her attire is beyond imagination of the common human mind. It was so bright... it felt as if the Universe draws its light from the radiance emanated. She accepted Guruji’s offerings and took his hand in Her hand. The rain continued. They walked together in the rain. Goddess was leading, while Guruji was in a trance. Jīvātma and Paramātma together — they came down the hillock and moved towards the future Śrī Meru temple.
Just like one who is walking in sleep, not knowing where and how, Guruji walked with Her. He had no identity of his own. He became one with Her! He is Her! She is him! He is insignificant, minuscule, in the hands of the Great Power that is the Supreme Leader — taking him into the luminescent worlds one by one.
He was praying to Her:
“Please! I would like to be with you! A part of you! One with you! The happiness of this blissful state is all I want! Nothing else would be important to me anymore. Your love! Your tenderness! Your kindness! They are drenching me in a torrent of Amṛta. This is what I want! How can you be so benevolent to me?! This is beyond everything I expected! This is what I live for! For without life I cannot experience this. This experience I want to relish for many lives of my future! Please Mother! Let me!”
His physical being became nonexistent. His mind and soul were dancing with inexplicable joy! He was conversing with Her. They reached the Śrī Meru temple site. There, as he observed in his transcendental state of happiness, She left him slowly, gradually, and silently as he was standing there in awe. She is like a lightning, enlightening everything around, and then disappeared. She has gone! But the experience lived with him.
From the teachings of Sri Amritananda Natha Saraswati (Guruji). Original post: "Darshanam of Goddess: When Devi Walked with Guruji", 7 November 2016, https://amritananda-natha-saraswati.blogspot.com/2016/11/darshanam-of-goddess.html. Posted on Guruji's blog by Vira Chandra. The blog does not name the person who wrote it down.
This account shows outer worship at its simplest. There is no yantra and no fire. A guest arrives, water is offered to drink and to wash Her feet, and the puja is done with what is at hand.
The prayer to be one with Her is the aim of inner worship in Kaula practice. Worship moves from an offering made to the Goddess to a feeling of being part of Her.
The place of the walk matters too. The Sri Meru temple later built at Devipuram is a Sri Chakra in stone. This story is often told as its beginning.
The account says She appeared as a beautiful sixteen-year-old maiden. He was dumbfounded, and She smiled and asked him to do puja to Her as the guest of honour.
He offered arghyam, water to drink, and padyam, water to wash Her feet. The water came from a sudden cloudburst just as he said there was none.
They walked together in the rain, down the hillock towards the site of the future Sri Meru temple.
She left slowly and silently at the Sri Meru site, like lightning that lights everything and then disappears. The experience stayed with him.
Read the original: Darshanam of Goddess: When Devi Walked with Guruji, on Guruji's blog. Guruji left his body in October 2015. This post was shared on his blog in 2016.
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