Diwali 2003: Guruji's Vision of the Mother

Guruji's words

Experience of Devī on Dīpāvalī
25-10-03, 4:15 AM

Started with some allergy. Locked on to Anāhata, coming and going like waves.

I was dragged in a current of thought, co-existing with Anāhata.

Started wondering about the grand question: is matter a combination of space and time, or is it an independent entity? Energy having dimensions MLT⁻², can matter be a combination of space and time?

The image of Reiki symbol flashed, Shokurei, or its Sanskrit interpretation Sakala. The symbol Sakala, which starts off as a horizontal line (x-axis), sharply becomes vertical time axis and then spirals in to center. A galaxy forming out of time and space interactions. It magnifies your intent to heal.

Take x, t space. Consider a square in that. Where t is constant and x varies, it is wave-like, existing at more than one point. Where x is constant, t varies, it is like a particle that is born, lives, dies.

Consider a circle in x, t space. It is showing space and time constantly becoming each other. How many different pictures can I draw in space-time?

With time constant, can space x be considered moving? What is space moving? Isn’t movement a property of time?

Space and time: where do they exist? They are in my mind.

Space, time can’t be independent of mind.

What is motion?

It is a locus of thought in the mind.

The program director springs to my mind. You create a movie by assembling objects (images, vector graphics) in space and time dimensions, limiting them in whatever ways I desire. Existence on stage is defined by extent in timelines. Sounds mix space and time in linear ways. Animations mix it in more complex ways, allowing going back and forth merrily in time through subjective interactions called lingo and behaviors. It all seems to be trajectories of properties of objects in the space of program.

I seem throttled. I don't have the lingo to express thoughts independent of somehow referring to time. Words like change, flow, verbs, predicates force me into saying things in the lingo of linear time, whereas reality seems to have no such limitations. What am I to do, how am I going to communicate, if language is denied? I feel I am an inarticulate speck of sand on the shore of an ocean trying to describe the ocean I am seeing to the world. Pitiable pettiness grips my throat.

“Yato vācaḥ nivartante aprāpya manasā saha” — a Sanskrit quote meaning, “From where words return, being unable to show the immensity.”

I sought the grace. O Mother, when will you lift me out of pettiness?

Then I saw Mother.

What beauty, what perfection, what harmony, what richness!

I saw Her bright form, I saw Her dark form. Pastel shades and dark hues. Infinite variety tapestry of beauty upon beauty expressing in excellence, in perfection. Vector graphic faces in the most beautiful colours from every culture, every time. Perfection personified. Crystals, facets, jewels, rainbow colors, vying with each other to come, display their fashion, show and vanish. Fleeting instances of glory.

Lasted about 20 minutes.

What is the way to such a blissful experience of Mother?
Surrender to silence and keep aspiration alive in you. That is the way. A constant commitment to beauty. Unletting dedication to truth and loving all. These are some of the ways.

I know I can’t make you see what I saw. But I am sure of some things:

We are going to see beauty, harmony, peace, richness, prosperity come to this world like never before. You are going to witness it in your lifetimes. Love is going to open up in mighty rivers. Crime will not pay. Pettiness will go. You will love everyone as you love your own children.

I love you. I will give you peace. That is a promise.

I cannot make you see Her. I will do my best, but that is something that you have to earn.

What is a way?

When I switch on a computer and the monitor, the programs come alive. I interact and work on new programs. Is the computer, power switch, the way to my experience of the programs (or whatever)? The Guru is like that. It is just an enabling device. Without it there is no experience of program. With it, it is not guaranteed. However, the conditions are:
(1) having the computer, electricity, and programs, and
(2) your willingness to sit in front of it and work.

Given these two, results are not guaranteed, but conditions have been met for them to occur. Finally, you are the architect of your realization.

Amrita
Dīpāvalī, 25th October, 2003

Guruji, Diwali 2003, as posted on Guruji's blog by Vira Chandra on 25 April 2016. A photograph of Guruji on the original post is not copied here.